the weather is so beautiful at the moment that it is hard not to be happy, it is warm and fresh. maybe fresh from the beginning of spring or just fresh each day like the juice with the crazy baby picture on the front. just that sort of warmth that even in the middle of the day you can feel the sense of hope that comes with a warm early morning on a hot summer's day. it is so nice to be with baby pickle and his skin on these sorts of days, his skin is warm and so inviting and he loves the fresh air it entertains him almost as much as parker the cat does. as soon as i step outside i am hit by the ohtheweatheriswonderful feeling and it stays with me only interrupted by the occasional anti-fantasy of what if that car were to hit and kill my baby pickle or the flashes of me trying to figure out how i will react what i will say when my boyfriend/sister calls to tell me that my baby pickle is dead. i am not a worrier and i dont take these thoughts seriously but i am annoyed at them because right now my goal is to live in the present and this is a hard goal to achieve and these anti-fantasies are not helping. i can't wait til alex brings out her range of t-shirts i am going to get the "Go Weather" t-shirt because weather really is a wonderful thing.