reading the paper this morning i felt for a japanese man who was arrested for making over 30,00o silent calls to directory enquiries. maybe making silent calls to a public service could be new form of meditation. i have never tried meditiation but i probably should, because i have a lot of mind clutter to clear and often i can't stop thinking about stupid things one night i couldn't sleep because i was so full of regret that i'd picked the wrong colour pusher, and i got up the next morning determined to dye the pusher or look for a new one. and simultaneously alongside that stream of pointless annoying thought was a persisitent pestering about how much i dont want to be a nuclear family, but how hard it is now to change that. surely my brain has better things to do than think about pusher colours when there is so much to work on in the world right now. i shouldn't have read the newspaper. there are many important campaigns to be involved in but i am still tempted to start up my ban heterosexual marriage campaign. the gay community would feel so much less isolated and the state could concentrate on recognising more important things like native title.